Abstract: This article is a reflective account of a researcher′s journey whilst embarking on a study which was political in its intentions and participatory in its orientation. Learning from feminist writings, where researchers have shared stories and explored notions of insider/outside, academic/activist, the central argument of the article is the development of an activist approach to environmental education research. The article draws on a doctoral research study which was a critical ethnography of a school and community engaged in a socially critical approach to environmental education. If I had tried to enter I may have never been invited If I had seen the cracks I may have fallen in If I had seen your tears I may not have cried with you If I had strained to hear I may not have heard your voices If I had sought the one true story I may have never known If I had watched your struggle from a distance I may have never shared your pain Reflective prose, Researcher′s Personal Journal, September 1994